Ok, i'm not wanting a flamewar or anything, BUT, halp pls -

Ok, first off, i'm gonna state a disclaimer: I am neither preaching or attempting to convert anyone. I could care less about any 'debate' that crops up as a result of this. I am here to ask advice, not to start discussing whether or not any of this is worthwhile, nor do I wish to discuss the 'good' or 'evil' of religion, and the various deities involved therein.

However, I have something to talk about with any catholic who is willing to listen to me. I'm not gonna go into details, but basically Dawn Marie is catholic.

There are two options around. It's not an ultimatum, and she has never presented it as one: Namely, I have no idea how to find faith in god. I don't even know where to begin. Like, there's times when i've thought there COULD be something, but literally the only time i've ever stated that I believed in Jesus Christ was under the threat of a bunch of tougher kids ganging up and beating the shit out of me in primary school. I have no clue how to contact any local priests or anything like that to discuss this kind of thing, and to be honest, while i'm not TRYING to force it, I have to ask: is it even possible to find faith when I have no feeling of it whatsoever?

See, the reason that I ask this is that... Dawn Marie has clearly stated that, if she had to, she would abandon her faith in god for me. I can see various people asking why that even matters, and why it's a problem. But here's the thing - I don't want her too. Her faith in god is something that she needs. Something that actually helps her, unlike most people flying the false banner of being a believer because they don't wanna go to hell.

In essence, i'm saying I love her too much to be the reason why she abandons such an important part of her life. Accuse me of being manipulated all you will. So far i've gotten by on what little spirituality I have (my belief system was once whittled down to ''Karmic retribution/reward with no prescence of any divine figure'') but if i'm honest, then yeah, even meeting her has shaken things up for me on every level.

Time was, I called her my 'angel', and I NEVER meant it as a metaphor. I honestly believed that it was fate that we would meet and be together. Perhaps you could say our rough times lately are a test, to see if I am really worthy of her. Perhaps you could say i'm an idiot for even considering that it's fate. Who knows? I'd actually like to have faith that it's the former.

So basically, the point is this: does anyone have any worthwhile advice for me? I know it's a hard question - after all i'm basically asking what I should do, and such a question is almost always entirely subjective... all i'm asking is that anyone who replies, does their best. I'm not asking for posts to prove or disprove god, i'm just asking what kind of steps I can take, what kind of stuff I can do, so I can look into things and decide for myself.

It doesn't matter how I get on with you as a person - all useful replies are very welcome.