Starving - - Profil3

I'm starving for affection
It's been forever since I've hugged you
It's been forever since I've kissed you
It's been forever since you've loved me
I just can't take it any more.

I'm starving for warmth
It's been forever since I've basked in your glow
It's been forever since you've held me tightly in your arms
It's been forever since you've gently whispered in my ear
I just can't be alone any more.

Sure I've seen you in forever
But it isn't like it used to be
You're friends are always around
requiring you more than me
I'm starving for your presence

The hugs are quick
The warmth doesn't last
The kisses disappear
You are just too preoccupied
I'm starving for you.

I hunger
for your arms around me
for your lips on mine
for you near me
I hunger for you

But there is no time for me
I can take care of myself
at least that's what I tell myself
But how long can that last?
Empty promises to a starving soul

I see you on the weekends
but you are with your friends
I see you on the weekends
but you don't seem to care
I see you on the weekends
but the time just doesn't last
I see you on the weekends
but the weekend feels like a forever ago

The weekends
do not erase the stress
do not last me through the week
do not let my happiness linger
The weekends do not last long enough

I wish you would get a car
so I could see you more
I wish you would see that I
am falling apart on the inside
I wish you could see through
the hollow lie of I'm fine.
I wish you could see how much
it hurts me
when
you
don't
notice
me.
I'm starving, please save me.

:: Explanation::
Since his car broke down, I've only been able to see my boyfriend once or twice a week. And that is only when he can get on of his friends to hang out with us. So I haven't really hung out with him in almost a month. Not only that, but his friends are all having a hard time in life, so they always drop me of at home early so that they can talk. And so we don't even get to say a proper goodbye. Sure he walks me to the door, but it is a swift kiss and he's gone. He's the one person I can talk to about anything and everything, so this lack of aloneness is killing me. On top of that, I've gotten very very stressed in school, and I just need to spend some time with him and just relax, but I can't. So I'm stuck here saying all the things I can't say to him because I don't have time. And because I don't want to add more problems to his already overloaded self. After all, he bears the weight of all of his friends problems. I love him, but I'm starving for his presence and he just can't see it. or do anything about it. Hence this lovely rant thing. o.O Anyway, I'm not really looking for advice, I just want to know what you think of my little poem thing. O.o Hope you enjoyed reading?

~Icky