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| Written by Leemoosohcoh on March 05 2008
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Why am I feeling this way? I was so sure of myself that I never wanted it. Maybe my certainty came from a feeling deep down inside of myself that knew that it would be impossible for me to get it. It always happens this way. I say one thing; fate does something completely opposite of what I say. And then I got carried away and told so many people that I never wanted it. And of course most people believed me. I even believed me!
But why do I feel this way now? Why do I feel jealousy towards those that got it? The ones who accomplished something that I tried so hard to accomplish, and failed at it. Why did I lie to myself and to everyone else so much? Did I really want it all that time? Was I just faking myself out the whole time? I wish I knew the answers to those questions.
But now it's all gone. My chance at achieving my goal has passed me by. My aspirations have become ghosts now. And they will haunt me. Taunting me with what I could have had, with what I could have been. I am so ashamed of myself. I know that achieving my goal would have helped so many people in so many ways. But I have failed myself, and I have failed you. I can't live with myself knowing what a great disservice I have committed to these people. I once fooled myself into thinking that I could best help them out from simply doing what I had done in the past. I only thought like that because I knew my goal was unattainable. But now that I see that it was attainable... it hurts so much to know that I failed where others succeeded. My feelings are fluctuating so much right now... I don't know how to feel. I don't know how to think or what to think. Nothing is constant; everything is spinning... out of control.
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there, there..... not all of us will get a PS3 now. maybe later.....
Bands: does it matter?
bluemage said: "there, there..... not all of us will get a PS3 now. maybe later..... "
Nice try... but *BUZZ*. Wrong.
Bands: Usher, Justin Timberlake, SSBB, Nine Inch Nails
well maybe you should take a break from what you are doing now, and concentrate on this "thing" that you....thing....
Bands: does it matter?
Matiki is going emooooooo.
You talking about brawl?
your gf?
Coco?
Bands: Angels & Airwaves, Alice in Chains, Billy Talent
Am I the only one who knows what he is referring to? I see what you mean though. Some of the people I think did not deserve it....
Bands: SOAD, Mudvayne, Metallica, In Flames, Godsmack, etc
Well, at least I could count on you, Dante, to understand me. I don't know enough about them to say that though.
Bands: Usher, Justin Timberlake, SSBB, Nine Inch Nails
03/06/08
xAzarotHx
Weak spots - cover them.
Strong spots - use them.
Good luck?
Bands: Melodic Death, Black, Thrash, Prog. & Power Metal; Indie, Hard & Prog. R
I lol'd so hard when I found out what it was. Remember iSketch?
Jackass.
Bands: Ladytron, The Knife, Death Cab For Cutie, Shiny Toy Guns.
*sighs* Bobo, come on now, even if you DID want t, even if you HAD tried, you woudent have gotten what you wanted. You tried too hard, at the wrong time. I'm sorry.
Maybe next time bobo 
Bands: Gewd Bands
DONT PRETEND THATCHA KNOW ME BECAUSE I DONT EVEN KNOW MYSELF!!!
-sweet guitar riff-
 sorry just had to =_=
Bands: The Who, Animal Collective, Architecture in Helsinki
ther there its all gon be k
Bands: Blink-182, Box Car Racer, Angels & Airwaves, +44, Slipknot, Alexisonfire
xAzarotHx said: "Weak spots - cover them.
Strong spots - use them.
Good luck?"
If you cover them up they can come out. Use your strong spots to take the weak spots away.
Bands: Paramore, linkin park, finger 11, foo fighters
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