Strangely Motivated? -

Ok, so after 2+(or around there) weeks of not leveling, I have this sudden urge to grind out a few more percent so that I can level [and finally getting to level 65, and equipping my below average Evil Wings

].

I feel strongly motivated for some odd reason. May it be that I want to outlevel my friend [currently level 66] since he is on a break from maple for a couple of weeks, I want to catch up to a few of my friends that arent so far up ahead, to prove to some jerks [and my friends] that I CAN achieve priesthood--that I will own them [with my awesome skills of course, not damage, silly], I want to catch up to Rafi in terms of the amount of levels that we each have gained since I joined his guild, I want to meet new and awesome friends/training partners that I can rely on, I want to be able to go bossing, I want to be able to easily survive at some of the higher leveled monsters, I want to actually be able to stalk/train with some of my higher leveled friends, I want to be a great training partner [re-casting skills, making sure party members dont die, being generous about the drops...] so that I actually feel useful in a party--like I actually belong, I want to motivate other people [and my friends] to make a priest, I want to be the one that trains others--not the other way around, I want to be recognized as a helpful and considerate person and friend.

But most importantly, I want to achieve this goal by myself. I dont want my friends spending their own time [when they can be training themselves] on training me. Sure, I'll party them, but only if we're both killing the monsters.

Priesthood is only a few more levels away. I feel as though this is my chance--my opportunity to show everyone that I wont be stuck as a weaksauce cleric forever.