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| Written by JouninWolf on July 15 2008
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Now that I think of it, I've been a nobody all this time. A worthless person, just leeching off his parent's hard work. I hadn't taken middle school or high school seriously, and took a test to pass. Sure the test required a 12th grader's intelligence to pass, but it's not like I'm a genius. I haven't been taking college seriously at all either. Not only did I brush it off for nearly a year after I got my high school degree, but I've only been learning without doing any work, which has lead me to fail the two classes I took (not including weight training, as I simply took that to get athletic).
I can't drive yet, and was supposed to learn how for the past two months (since I became 18 and could get my license). I never had a part time job where my boss was a stranger (I've worked for my dad sometimes, but he was very lenient on me). If even one of my parents were to die, I'd be screwed over. I'm in my home most of the time, which has lowered how comfortable I am in social areas.
I had a really big dream of creating my own anime, but it's slowly dying out because with all these newer and popular animes being released, my idea seems less original and more of a "stolen idea". I have no skills in drawing what so ever, so I can't draw it as a manga and then have it adapt into an anime. On another note, how would a nobody's work like mine ever be noticed? Would anyone in the business even consider it average let alone outstanding? Would it even be accepted at all?
I've been wasting too much time, killing time for the past 5 years doing nothing that will benefit my future in the least with the two exceptions of becoming physically fit and getting my high school degree. I have to pull myself together, finish college, go to and finish university to get a master's degree, learn to drive, and get a part time job until I finish schooling. I also need to find motivation by myself to create my anime/manga, as dying a simple computer technician/software developer is not my intention in life.
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Wow that sucks. Anyway you should right now focus on driving, the most important skill you need right now if you want a job. And for a job, take a good look around and do something that pays and get a taste of life y'know. You're going to have to deal with the strangers eventually. And for your anime, just start with manga or look around and see if a studio needs a person, even if it's not actually what you want to do being in the business you still learn a lot. But I do think if you want to make an anime of your own to become a manga assistant first and then team up with an artist to make a manga. Death note there is an author and an artist, so don't think you can't do that. Although it is better to improve your artistic skills some y'know. Just organize yourself man. Don't procrastinate, get to know how to deal with people. Find a friend to work with. I mean you're awfully close to being on your own and you need to get going. The world is full of opportunity man, take advantage of it. And quite frankly no one here considers you no one. I mean none of us have had the chance to make a name for ourselves, so just get out here and do something! Sulking never solved anything.
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We always make mistakes in life. However, your life isn't over yet.
Well, I'm the same situation as you so I can relate. Not sure of what to do after graduation, no girlfriend, and almost no friends. I know my school has reached its last year of life so there's no other people I can socialize with apart from own classmates, so that's a huge disadvantage for me. Right now I'm focusing on driving and trying to do my best to graduate High School... I guess life will do the rest. We'll see... But I'm sure not going to give up just now. I'm pretty sure University is going to be a tad more insteresting for me. 
So don't fret just yet, Aram. Remember there are other nobodies such as me that are simply waiting for a good chance to prove their skills in life. Besides I never thought you are a nobody. You're just someone who doesn't like looking for trouble outside his home, but wasn't lucky enough to get a clue about getting the right direction in life. You're as guilty as I am.
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You aren't a nobody, because so far, what you've chosen to do you've excelled at.
Your school career, as you've said, you haven't taken it seriously. If you have, you'd obviously have excelled with that too, and will.
All you can do is go out there and get started, because if you give up now, you'd just be wasting time. =p
I felt this way for a while.. kind of like an introvert. I spent more time online as a way to pass the time instead of just going outside to see people.
I've changed, and I spent lots of time with friends now.
So get out there and get started on those things you want to do.
PS: And the fact I spend lots of time in real life made my internet-persona diminish. It's kind of sad..
And also, before I left, I was getting very bitter. I can't quite comfortably explain why, but it's all about the flaws of being a human. Ever had anything going on like that?
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Yeah, I can totally relate to almost everything you said... But life is long Aram, and opportunities to shine will eventually come, you just need to wait it out
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