Guess I'll see how it goes. -

Well, I haven't really been very motivated lately, I've kinda been tired of maple for the past several days. So now I sit here drinking some beer, eating chili cheese fries, downloading old Juvenile songs and typing a blog. Normally, I'd be logged on as soon as I got home to find a map for 4x, but not today. I just don't feel like it.

I get like this every now and then, I have a feeling of "why the hell do I even waste my time with this game". And I know why, I really do. I love the feeling of accomplishment, I'm proud of my character and I'm always pushing myself to be as good as I can possibly be. But recently, I was planning to spend quite a large amount of real life money on something and I had to stop and think..."is it really worth it?" I mean I don't mind spending money on maple, it's provided me with countless hours of entertainment but sometimes I gotta put an end to it. I'll probably be taking a small break, then getting back into it shortly. I got on last night for the sole purpose of talking to Debbie and saying hi to everyone while I sat in Ellinia, staring at Scott's avatar sitting there beside me. I didn't do anything productive but I can't leave my peeps.

You guys have been great to me, even with all the shit that's been surrounding me for the past few months. I know I have some skeletons in my closet and some people don't like me and even go as far as to talk shit about me but I try not to let it bother me....I just tell myself that my true friends know who I am and will stick by me no matter what. And I thank each and every single one of you for that.

Tim, you've stuck by my side and you really are a true friend to me. I know you've come under a lot of fire for being there for me and you've stayed resilient. I appreciate everything you've done for me and always listening to what I have to say while giving your honest opinion on things that have greatly affected me. Thanks man, I'll never forget it.

John, what can I say? You're my blood and you and I have stuck together since we were young. You always provide such hilarious comic relief and some things I think only you and I really understand.

You're a great brother.

Scott, you truly will do just about anything for anyone. I really enjoy doing activities with you and you're always there to have a good time. You're a lot of fun man, and you're always looking out for all your friends without making any bias. I really admire you for that.

Aly, you sexy Bingo guru.

I've known you for such a long time and I feel I've grown pretty close to you, especially since we've been in Kokuren. I really hope you get higher level soon, cause just about the only thing we can do together is APQ and I'd really like to pap with ya! it's really a lot of fun when you're around.

Brian, you've been a great guild leader and the fact that you critique yourself is actually quite healthy. I feel honored that you ask me my opinions on guild decisions you make and I feel Kokuren is by far a better guild than Shikgu was. You've always been an honest and generous person, thanks a lot.

Christina, your motivation and drive is quite impressive. It's a joy to have recently met you, you're a fantastic person. I'm really looking forward to getting to know you more in the future.

Lei, I really miss you.

I see in your blogs that you've moved to Kradia and I'm glad you're having a good time but I really wish you'd come back to your CB on Bera. It was the account I really got to know you on, and the one I most identify you with. You know I'm always here for ya.

Debbie, you're a truly awesome person. Your friendliness and kind nature was one of the first things I noticed about you and it's been such a pleasure to be married to you. You've always given me my time for myself while at the same time being there for me, you have such a perfect balance of the two. You've given me so many things and been such a great friend and maple wife. You know I'll do just about anything for you and I know the same is true for me. Our relationship is one I deeply cherish.

The whole Kokuren guild, it's such a blast. Anyone I didn't mention here, it's prolly just cause I didn't think you'd read this blog but that doesn't mean I don't think of you.

Thanks everyone for everything, it's truly a blessing to be in such a great guild.

I'm starting a new position at work, I'll be working on-site at the UAB (University of Alabama at Birmingham) hospital for Cardinal Health. My hours will be much different, I'll go in about 3pm and get off anywhere from 11pm-2am. I'll be getting more hours with easier work and actually working in a hospital rather than a warehouse is going to be really exciting. So just a heads up, I won't be on much in the evenings anymore. You'll probably see me on more during the day or late at night starting Monday. Wish me luck guys, this is a big change for me!