I hate my brother - emo time, Hate, losers, sadness

ARGH.

Why am I such an inept loser? I can't do anything. I get a new game, and I'm stuck on 12 different parts!(okay, 3 but whatever... and uh, I can be stuck in multiple parts do to the game play.. ask if you wanna know) I try to play a bass line, a fairly simple one, and I can't play one part through even after a half hour of trying.

Where does the brother come into this? I couldn't play the bass, and he figured out how to play the exact same thing on different notes, from MEMORY, he didn't even have to listen to the song. And that game? He hasn't progressed far,(because either my Gamecube is broken, or the disk is fucking everything up) but he's already better then me! How many games do I have? Around 35, including computer. I havn't beaten half of them. The ones I did beat I had to follow a guide, I've never once beaten a game without following a guide. And aside from that, I've only beaten most of them on low diffculties, or because it was a point and click game.(Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic) I'm supposed to be a gamer, but I even suck at games. Why do you think I quit Maple Story? Cause I found it boring.. but why would I find it boring? Because I wasn't progressing. I was stuck at a level for one month each, the game was staying still for me.

And I'm supposed to be a bassist? I can't even play a simple bass line I got off a tab, my brother tabs it. And he's not even supposed to be a bassist!

In the end, I just turn out to be an untalented loser who can't do anything good or right. My life hasn't been very enjoyable for the past two years. I've moved to 3 different states, expecting to live there, and not once has it come to pass. Oh, and I've moved 8 times in total. I've been through way too much for a 14 year old. Now now, yes I'm sure people have been through more, and for those people, I simpathize..... but either way, I'VE still been through to much for a 14 year old.. a 14 year old that's had it worse has been through worse.. but that doesn't take away my fact.

And all I wanted, was to finally have the girl I love, and I finally would have.. but now she'll be gone again, and do to the events now, I wont be able to turn the tables on that like I did last time. She's all I wanted, I didn't need anything else. Now see, I want a $5000 Mac Pro...... but I could go the rest of my life without it, as long as I had her. And look at that! Now I'll never get her.

I used to be the happiest go lucky guy you'd ever meet, and generally I still am.. but now, on the inside, I hate everyone and everything. What's the point of happiness? Everything in my life seems to turn against my liking, and I'm a completly unskilled hack who's got no one and nothing.

There ya go, my first public emo rant. Now everyone who cares can see the usual "happy guy", and what he's really like.