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I have this odd feeling that I am getting looked at as "That great martial artist" in the wrong way. I have this odd feeling that people look at me and ask me to fight and hurt and ponder the unthinkable not because they know I will. But becaus they know I can. They know that I have far more ability than others.

So I have fear that they trivialize my years of hard work. I have fear that they don't know how much went into this place and that they simply tell me because people love to see tragedies design. It's not their fault I guess. But i think people should know, im not just fists for hire. I am a fighter who has more depth than that.

Sure I dont mind lending out my gifts, but even still... I am not one for pointless dribble. I feel bad almost... Jared is full of crap... he spews it from his mouth when he talks... but people accept him with hands of thorns. The people he tries to befriend are people who will accept him with open arms, but yet and still stab him from a hundred angles. I know the very same feeling... i can sympathise. When you want the company of others, yet they all look at you distastefully. That they wont accept you, that they'll hate you before you speak your whole, and that your half of the tale is nothing or worthless.

It took me a moment today... to understand that he is stupid but is not worthless. And that if i went through with my original intentions... that nothing good would have come of it. I AM NOT A FIST FOR PERSONAL USE!

So make your own way dammit. It's like that here, not in this kingdom.